let go.

wishlist! XD

2009-11-06T01:52:00.000-08:00

i'm pretty excited for next week for two reasons. (1) second sem is about to begin and (2) it's my birthday! yey me! haha. and what is a birthday without a wishlist, right? so here are some things i want for my day. it's okay to spoil me guys. nothing's bad about that. XD

1. CD. (super junior, girls' generation, 2ne1, big bang, urbandub, michael jackson)
2. lomo cam.
3. magic 8 ball. HAHA.
4. super stacks.
5. cute shirt. (color preferrably blue or pink)
6. DVD. (korean drama, super show, grey's anatomy, gossip girl season 3, family guy.)
7. cute earphones. (yung tulad nung kay dindin. pero wag lady bug. kay dindin na yun. HAHA.)
8. colored pens. (yung stabilo. hindi yung highlighter.)
9. black chuck taylor. (size 7)
10. games for my mac.
11. gift cheques. (kahit ano. basta magagamit ko dapat. ok na din sa NBS or SM. haha.)

kung wala talaga kayong perang pambili ng kahit ano dyan, kantahan at sayawan niyo na lang ako. dapat pang-concert ang level. haha. joke. kahit ano na lang. basta alam kong pinag-isipan niyo at mula sa puso. kekeke~

hmm. yan lang siguro. you have 5 days guys. late gifts will be accepted. HAHA. :D

emo-ish.

2009-03-07T16:37:00.000-08:00

grabbed this from zarah's blog. wala lang. hahaha. XD

Her Side:

If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
It’s because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
It’s not because he pleases me
It’s because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
It's not because I love him
It’s because you're not there to catch me if I fall

If you feel lost, I, too am nowhere
I, too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with

Don't let me talk about him
It's you I want to talk about

Don't let me fall for him…
…It's you I want to fall in love with.

---

His Side:

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I, too am lost
I, too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk behind you
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me listen about him…
I want to hear your heartbeat

Don't let yourself fall for him…
…I want you to fall in love with me.

haay. im inspired (streetdance is <3). but still, im getting tired. i need a break. please give me a break.

+

2009-02-27T21:15:00.000-08:00

haha. wala lang. naisipan ko lang magblog, magdada at kung anu-anu pang ka-etchosan sa mundo. pagpasensyahan niyo na. bored lang talaga ako. hehe.

wala lang talaga. nilulubos ko lang ang panahong ito na tamad pa ako mag-aral dahil bukas kahit tamarin man din ako mag-aral ay kailangan ko ding mag-aral. sapagkat sa lunes ay may exam ako sa bio11, sa miyerkules ay may exam ako sa math53 at sa biyernes ay may exam ako sa panpil12. hay. pagod na talaga ako. takte naman kasi. kung kelan looking forward ka na na matatapos na ang sem, saka ka naman itotorture ng mga exam.

ako'y naninibago ngayon sapagkat ako'y nagtatagalog sa aking post na ito. nakakapanibago naman talaga diba? pero baka hindi naman. sabagay, matagal naman din akong hindi nagbloblog. at isa pa ding yung bagay na nakakapanibago. mukha na ba akong baliw dito? sorry naman. wala lang talaga. XP

crap.

2008-12-04T02:21:00.000-08:00

here i am. blogging about nonsense. i should be studying for my math53 exam tomorrow morning. gawd, i hate hell weeks. and i'm also starting to hate cramming. i have been used to this when i was in high school, but now... you know what i mean.

sheesh. i have 3 exams next week. god help me.

lim ln x = -infinity

x->0+

buhay UP

2008-08-09T18:06:00.000-07:00

haha. wala akong magawa. i grabbed this from zarah's blog. hehehe.

1. Ano ang student number mo? Gusto mo ba ito?
- 2008-54126. ok lng. hehe.
2. Magbigay ka ng tatlong course sa UP Diliman na hindi mo talaga alam kung ano ang pinag-aaralan nila. Pwedeng magbigay ng rason kung bakit.
- wala ata. hehehe.
3. Meron ka bang araw na wala kang break? Anung technique ang ginagawa mo para makakain ka?
- wala. hahaha. XP
4. Alam mo ba kung saan ang Teletubby Land? [Yung totoo, bawal bumase sa pinagkuhanan ng survey na ito]
- oo naman. lagi nga akong dumadaan dun papuntang math bldg.
5. Nakakita ka na ba ng nagpi-PDA? Sa AS? As in sa AS Entrance? In Broad Daylight? In front of many people? Ikaw ba yung gumagawa nun?
- nah. minsan lang ako dumaan dun. hehe.
6. Naranasan mo na bang dumaan sa Beta Way? Kahit madilim na?
- yep. trippings namin ng mga roomies ko.infairnes, ang daming fireflies dun. hahaha.
7. Alam mo ba na may 4th Floor ang FC?
- oh? tlga? 3rd floor lng ang inabot ko dun. hehe.
8. Within the UP Campus, ano na ang pinakamalayo mong nalakad?
- from LB -> kalay -> kamia. hehe.
9. Meal?
- tpos?
10. Sa tingin mo, bakit concealed ang profs sa Math?
- malay ko ba. hehe.
11. Nakakuha ka na ba ng Math prof na out-of-this-world?
- ayun. di pa naman. at sana hindi ako makakuha. hehe.
12. Natatakot ka ba sa tumutunog na kuryente sa tabi ng EEE building?
- dati. pero ngayon, nsanay na ako eh.
13. Ilang individual libraries na ang napuntahan mo within Up Diliman? Isa-isahin.
- cs. main lib. cal. yun pa lng.
14. Nakanood ka na ba ng Oblation Run? At namukhaan na isa doon ay kaklase mo?
- yep. hahaha. unfortunately, wala akong kakilala dun. hehe.
15. Nakakita ka na ba ng Atenean na nakatambay sa UP Campus? At naki-sit in sa klase niyo?
- tambay, meron. pero sit-in? wala.
16. Nakakita ka na ba ng artista na nag-aaral sa UP? Saan?
- oo.ako! hahaha.
17. Sa tingin mo, ano ang pinakamahirap na subject sa UP?
- math! hahaha.
18. Alam mo ba na tumutunog ang Carillon?
- alam ko. pero minsan ko lng marining.
19. Nakapasok ka na ba sa College of Music? Kwento mo naman.
- hindi pa naman. ano meron? kwento naman.. :)
20. Nagpapic ka na kay Oble? Kung oo, confident ka ba na gagraduate ka?
- hindi. haha.
21. May College Shirt ka ba? Anu design?
- wala.
22. Naranasan mo na bang mag 1vs100 sa CRS?
- hindi pa.
23. Naglalaro ka ba ng Guess the Course/Spot that Freshie kapag wala kang magawa habang tumatambay sa AS? Isinasabay mo ba ang Girl/Boy Hunting sa larong ito?
- spot the freshie lng. xempre naman ksabay nun ang boy hunting. kahit kelan naman eh. hehehe.
24. Nangungulekta ka ba ng Kule? Ano ang favorite section mo dito?
- oo. kasi kelangan ko sa dorm. mei contest kasi na padamihan ng nakokolekta na papel at pet bottles per corridor. hahahaha.
25. Sino ang pinakastriktong guard sa UP na nakilala mo? Yung hindi mo talaga matakasan na wala kang ID?
- yung andun sa IC guard. hahaha.
26. Nakukulangan ka pa ba sa ruta ng Ikot at Toki Jeep? Anung gusto mong ibahin sa ruta nito?
- hindi. pwede ba ibahin ang ruta ng Toki? nahihilo kasi ako kapag sumasakay dito eh. hahaha. XD
27. Natatakot ka ba sa mga tingin ng mga nangangampanya tuwing Elections? Bakit?
- tingin? bket?
28. May bura ka na ba sa Form 5 mo? Anu yon?
- wala naman. hahaha.
29. Nagkaprof ka na ba na laging wala sa klase tapos tinadtad kayo ng make-up classes sa end ng sem? Sino?
- wala pa naman. hehe.
30. Alam mo ba kung saan ginagawa ang Blue Book? Gusto mo bang magventure sa business na ito?
- hindi. saan ba? hehehe.

i'm doomed. [people, read this.]

2008-04-24T14:14:00.000-07:00

yeah. i'm doomed. thanks to that phone line that my father gave me. i have consumed so much load in texting. damn. i am really doomed.

anyway, i just wanna inform you guys that i will not be using my number right now. i won't be texting for a month or more. no more unlimited texting. goodbye unli world. i just wanna punish myself. lol.

if you wanna contact me, just call/text my old num. if you don't have my old num, just pm me. i'll give it to you if i know you. i won't be replying to those texts which are not important.

that would be all. *bow*

P.S
my dad's gonna kill me. huhuhu. T_T
(just exaggerating.)

let's play a game. hehe. =]

2008-04-13T14:13:00.000-07:00

tagged by rocky... nyahahahha!

10 things that begin with letter "R"

raquel - ang aking pinakamamahal na clone na nag-tag sakin nito. bakla siya. hahaha.
rawr - ang sinasabi ng baboy sa friendster profile ko. ito rin ang usual na sinasabi pag nagiging wild ang isang tao.
roll-on - isang klase ng deodorant. haha.
robinson's - isang mall na itinatayo dito sa Tacloban. boink.
ratatouille - pangalan ng kyut na daga sa isang movie. ito rin ang title ng movie na iyon. isa sa mga paborito kong palabas. hahaha.
rubber duckie - wala lang. wala ako nito. pero pumasok siya sa isip ko, so sige na lang. ito ang karaniwang kalaro ng mga tao sa bath tub. wakokoko.
random - karaniwan ko itong nararamdaman sa tuwing ako'y nagbloblog.
revel bar - ang masarap na pastry ni tita lut sa kanilang bakeshop. hihihi.
rowing - ang sport ng kapatid ko na si kuya martin. hehe.
roleta - ang karaniwang ginagamit sa mga gameshow. lol

Now the fun part...
I tag.......

weanne sanico
jim merin
jassem severino
donna flores
aidyl perez
chiz eway
aldo mayoralgo
melody hidalgo
michelle tonido
keetoy garces

now put 10 things that begin with letter "M" :) okies?!
got it?
:)

ok, this is not a fairy tale.

2008-04-11T12:43:00.000-07:00

April 11, 2008 has become one of my most unforgettable dates. Wanna know why? Let's just say that during that day, 3 girls were reunited once more after 4 years of being away from each other (well, almost).

Since our grade school days, Jassem, Weanne, and I have been BFFs. We laugh, cry, and enjoy things together. It just so happened that we have to go separate ways since we would study in different schools. However, Weanne and I went to the same school.

Now that we've graduated high school, the three of us decided to have a reunion. It was supposed to be held on Monday but we have to move it since Weanne was busy. So, we had it yesterday. And now, the story begins...

Once upon a time, in a far away kingdom. Just joking. This is not a fairy tale.

Ok, let's be a bit more serious right now. A lot of things happened yesterday.

Number 1: We were suppose to be having our lunch in Jollibee but my parents insisted on joining them in Ocho. So, we had our lunch in Ocho. (We were so lucky! haha.)

Number 2: We had our studio pics in Stylish. We had 5 shots. So we had our solo pics and 2 group pics. (Damn! I've been going to Stylish for 3 straight days. OMG!)

Number 3: Penshoppe.

Number 4: We bought 3 identical necklaces and bracelets. Serves as our friendship churva. hehe.

Number 5: While waiting for the pics, we decided to hang out in Libro (the usual tambayan of Jam and Roni. ayee. haha.). There we talked about our lives, school lives, future lives, and of course, our love lives. hahaha. XD

Number 6: After having chika at Libro, we decided to get our pics. Then, we went home.

Everytime I think about our reunion yesterday, I remember 4th grade all over again. I missed our bondings talaga. Love you girls!

finally.

2008-03-27T12:36:00.000-07:00

Graduate na ako! hahaha.

I'm gonna miss pisay and my batchmates. Thanks for all the memories. It was fun being with you guys.

what's with surveys? why do people keep on posting them?

2008-03-18T21:44:00.000-07:00

1. Today is:
╔•tuesday. march 18, 2008. holy tuesday.

2. I should be:
╔•finishing my article for the yearbook. kaso tinatamad ako. haha.

3. The last text message I received
was from:
╔•nomer. hehe.

4. And it said:
╔• "Hmm... Adi nla.. Kamu na? Yes no..."

5. I am currently pissed off because:
╔•am i pissed?

6. My cellphone rings and the song
that's playing is:
╔•nokia tune. hehe.

7. I would love to see:
╔•my friends and ****. hehe.

8. If I could change my last name, it
would be:
╔•hmm. let's see. ayala? bloom? depp? groban? haha.

9. After class, I love to:
╔•stay with my friends.

10. My favorite subject is:
╔•chem. woot~

11. I liked yesterday because:
╔•i had fun bonding with bitang and ena. hehe.

12. But I still sort of didn't because:
╔•may kulang. hehe.

13. My favorite song/s right now would
have to be:
╔•back into you by amber davis
╔•wait for you by elliot yamin
╔•wall to wall by chris brown
╔•stay real by april
╔•etc...

14. I sometimes forget to:
╔•pray.

15. I currently have a crush on:
╔•****. hehe.

16. My favorite number/s would have to
be:
╔•11.

17. When I'm in a bad mood, it's
better to just:
╔•be silent and contemplate.

18. I really can't stand:
╔•huh? i can stand. i have legs yah know. harhar.

19. I'd break up with my
boyfriend/girlfriend right away if?
╔•he's cheating on me. XD

20. If I were to get stuck in an
elevator with someone, it would have
to be:
╔•refer to number 15. hehe.

21. I'd really like to improve my
grades on:
╔•physics. pero wala nang chance. hehe.

22 . The last thing that wasn't food
that I bought with my own money are:
╔•that colorful headband. hehe.

23. The name of the street where I
live is:
╔•A.P Dadison

24. I have never ridden:
╔•a camel. hehe.

25. If I won the lottery, the first
thing I would buy is:
╔•a ford everest for my mom. hihi.

26. One bad habit of mine is:
╔•i tend to curse. !@#%$^&*

27. I go to school in:
╔•Philippine Science High School - Eastern Visayas Campus.

28. I study there because:
╔•uwat pa ak hadto. hehe.

29. One friend who is not from my
college is:
╔•di pa ak college. wakokoko.

30. I am currently stressed because:
╔•maraming pa akong babayaran. waaaah. poverty!

ako'y magtatagalog. bakit ba?

2008-03-15T20:44:00.000-07:00

wala akong magawa ngayon. hahahaha.

1.anong ayos ng buhok mo ngayon?
- ponytail

2. kumusta na ang puso mo?
-ayos lang. la naman akong sakit sa puso.

3. may iniisip ka ba ngayon?
-yep.

4. madali ka bang magalit?
-uhh. parang. hehe.

5. kelan ka huling nakakita ng
unggoy?
-2 years ago ata yun.

6. kelan ka huling uminom ng taho?
-last year ata yun.

7. anong huli mong ininom?
-tubig

8. my crush k b ngayun??
-oo naman. normal ako noh. haha.

9. single? taken? o reserved?
-reserved? meron ba nun?

10. kelan ka huling tumawa?
-kanina.

11. madali ka bang maimpluwensyahan?
-ata. baka. cow. carabao. unggoy.

12. e may lakad ka ba mamaya?
-wala.

13.may pinoproblema ka ba ngayon?
-parang. hehe.

14. anong pinakagusto mong nabili?
-???

15. mahilig ka bang tumakbo?
-di maxado. hehe.

16. anong huli mong napanood sa tv?
-bratz. hehe.

18. madali ka bang magpatawad?
-yep. madali akong kausap. hehe.

19. malikot ka ba?
-hell yeah!

20. anong gusto mo?
-marami akong gusto eh. nakakatamad i-enumerate. haha.

21. last friend/s you have been with?
-glennie. hehe.

22. ilan ang sim mo?
-isa na lang. t

23. sino madalas mO ka text?
-2 of my close friends, jim and weanne. hihi.

24. anong pinapakinggan mo ngayon?
- wait for you by kyla. so love this song. lalo na yung kay elliot yamin version.

25. san ka nakita last sunday?
-sa bahay?

26. may curfew ka ba?
-yep.

27. anong pinagkakaabalahan mo ngaun?
-uhh. graduation practices. hehe.

28. sa palagay mo cno sunod na ssagot
sa survey na to?
-malay ko ba. la akong care. hehe.

29. cno ung taong huling nagpaiyak
sayo?
-ewan. i forgot na. tagal na akong di umiiyak. oh yeah.

i'm back and i have something for you guys. =)

2008-03-11T19:37:00.000-07:00

i'm back from being hiatus. i missed the blog world. i have tons of stories to tell. but before that, i have something for all of you.

just click this link:
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/youare

it's not porn. it's not a virus. it's not something bad. just trust me. hihi.

have fun guys.

P.S.
thanks Aldo. =)

it's 2008 and i'm back baby!

2008-01-06T17:50:00.000-08:00

New year. New layout. New hair. New things. New life?

It's already 2008 and boy! how time flies. In less than three months, I'll already be graduating high school and will be entering college. Yeah, I'm scared of what my future holds. For the meantime, let's just focus about the present.

This month, a lot of universities are releasing their results of entrance exam passers. As of now, 2 universities, where I took entrance exams, released its results. I passed one and flunked the other one. But that's just okay for me. I know God has other plans for me and I know that it would be better. Enough with that.

Anyway, I'm feeling random again. Classes would resume tomorrow. Sucks mehn!

just updating.

2007-11-22T01:18:00.000-08:00

It's way past midnight and I'm here blogging random stuffs. I'm supposed to make my homework in Filipino but, as usual, I'm too lazy to do it. It's been almost a month since my last post. Man, I'm really having a difficulties in finding time to blog. A lot of events had just passed like my birthday and our research congress.

Being a senior student is quite stressful yet so enjoying. We had tons of stuff to do and somehow we have lots of time to do it. However, students as we are, we don't do it even if we had the time. We still prefer cramming. Yeah, cramming. One perfect example, my Filipino homework which I'm suppose to be doing right now. I'm not really into doing things like these when I'm alone. A lot of things just keep coming in my head that is not related to what I should be doing. Last night, the same thing happened to me. This weird thought just popped out of my head. And I had made drama out of this thing to my bestie, Weanne, while we were texting each other.

Marz: haiz..
Weanne: anu? (what?)
Marz: wrai la.. dmu la nsulod tak utok..
(nothing much.. a lot of things keep on pooping out of my head..)
Weanne: lyk what?
Marz: what if natago ak.. tpos tigda ak nmatay.. mei mkabiling kaya ha ak? kun meada mn, hnu?
(what if I was hiding. suddenly, i die. will somebody find me? if so, who?)

And the rest was history. So much for that. I'm so random this moment. I won't blabber much. I got to finish this assignment. ugh.

another crappy survey..

2007-10-27T11:10:00.000-07:00

TEN WHAT QUESTIONS:
1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
~~ "i wanna go back to sleep.."

2. What did you do last night?
~~ text then sleep

3. What is the most important part of your life?
~~ my family, my friends..

4. What would you rather be doing right now?
~~ hold my own concert.. nyahaha..

5 . What did you last cry over?
~~ the death of my mini-pincher pup..

6. what always makes you feel better?
~~ listening to music and the texts of some people.. :D

7. What are your plans tomorrow?
~~ i still have no plans..

8. What's the most important thing(s) you look for in a significant other?
~~ hmmm..

9. What are you worried about?
~~ our research study!

10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
~~ a lot...

NINE HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend/boyfriend ?
~~ yep.. haha..

2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
~~ yeah..

3. Have you ever had sex in a public place?
~~ of course not.. and that will never happen.. :P

4.Have you ever been out of the country?
~~ yep..

6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
~~ ahaha.. of course.. that's life..

7 . Have you ever had the cops called on you?
~~ nope.. i'm a good citizen.. haha..

8. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
~~ nope.. corrupting minors daw yung labas ko nun..

9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
~~ yup..

EIGHTWHOS :
1. Who was the last person you saw?
~~ our maid..

2. Who was the last person you kissed?
~~ my dad

3 . Who was the last person you called?
~~ victoria.. miss call lang..

4. Who was the last person who called you?
~~ my dad..

5. Who was your first crush?
~~ don't remember

6. Who was the last person who texted you?
~~ mart

7.Who is the last person you texted?
~~ nicole

8. Who did you last yell at?
~~ lorenz.. during the form.. haha..

SEVE N WHENS:
1. When was your last shower?
~~ early this morning..

2. When did you last see your mom?
~~ before she left for work..

3. When was your last kiss?
~~ yesterday..

4 . When did you last dress up?
~~ kanina gad.. after tkaing a bath..

5 . When was the last time you cried?
~~ October 23, 2007.

6. When did you last go to the movies?
~~ last summer

SIX WHERES:
1. Where do your best friend(s) live?
~~ tacloban city

2. Where did you last go?
~~ my room..

3. Where did you last hang out
~~ in front of the computer

4. Where do you go to school?
~~ Philippine Science High School - Eastern Visayas Campus

5. Where is your favorite place to be?
~~ anywhere basta makakachikka.. haha..

6. Where did you sleep last night?
~~ room

FIVE DOS/DOES:
1. Do you like someone right now?
~~ err.. yea..

2 . Does he/she like you too?
~~ maybe.. harhar.. feeler..

3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
~~ sometimes//

4. Do you know the muffin man?
~~ what?

5. Does the future scare you?
~~ slight..

FOUR WHYS:
1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?
~~ sooo many reasons

2 . Why did you get a Friendster?
~~ i forgot..

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
~~ Mara from my aunt's name (Maria), Kirstimel - kirsti meaning anointed and mel from my grandma's nick (Meling), and Li from my other aunt's name (Lilia)

4. Why are you doing this survey?
~~ nothing much to do..

THREE IFS:
1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
~~ to bring back time..

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
~~ uhh.. yes, i guess..

3. If you were stranded on a desert island and could bring one thing what would it be?
~~ a yacht.. haha..

ONE LAST QUESTION...
Are you happy with your life right now?
~~ contented..

i thought that...

2007-10-23T20:03:00.000-07:00

October 22, 2007 - It was supposed to be a very good day for me. Everything was good. I won in the "translate this song" contest. The rule is to translate a song from english to tagalog. The contest piece was the chorus of the song Umbrella by Rihanna. This is the chorus of the original version:

When the sun shine we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath, I'mma stick it out 'til the end

Now that it's raining more than ever know that we'll still have eachother
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh)

Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh eh eh-eh)

My Version:

Sumikat man o hindi ang araw
Samahan kita sa araw-araw
Sabi ko nandito lang ako
Naghihintay, nagbabantay sa iyo

Lumakas man o hindi ang ulan
Samahan kita hanggang katapusan
Andito lang ako magpakailanman
'Di kita iiwan kahit kelan (kelan, kelan, yeah, yeah, yeah)

'Di kita iiwan kahit kelan (kelan, kelan, yeah, yeah, yeah)
'Di kita iiwan kahit kelan (kelan, kelan, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Then, my parents just arrived from Manila that day. We met up at church. As we were on our way home, my mom told me that they have a surprise. When we arrived home, they showed me a black back. I recognized it as a bag for a laptop and it was really a laptop! I was really happy because it has been almost a year when I asked my parents to buy me a laptop for the reason that I kinda need it for my schoolwork. I really got excited. I was overwhelmed. As you can see in this pic.

So excited!

On that day, my group mates were having an overnight at our house for our Research. When 2 of them arrived, we waited for the others. While waiting, we watched High School Musical 2. Moments later, my mini pincher pup - Bam-Bam, went near us. I got bored watching HSM2 since I have watched it for several times. Because of boredom, I decided to play with Bam-Bam who approached us. I put him on the arm of the chair where I was sitting. We were playing happily. Then, he slipped from the arm of the chair and fell. I quickly picked him up. Because he was moving so much, he fell again and this time it was harder than the fall he had earlier. This time, he did not move much. As I picked him up, I started to worry. I went to my yaya as fast as I can. We tried to revive him. Then, I began to cry. After a few minutes, we noticed that he doesn't move anymore. I cried harder. We just realized that he is already dead. I can't believe that he died. He was just four months old. I really felt guilty that day. I know it was just an accident but the thought that he died with me. When I was alone at school this day, the happening last night kept repeating on my head. I could still hear the loud thud when he fell. I kept on crying last night and early this morning. Also, when I arrived, I cried because I saw his mom and I felt sorry for her. I thought that was a good day for me. All that I have received that day had was immediately exchanged with my very precious pup's life. *sigh* I'm still depressed right now. ='( I guess, that would be all for now.

In the loving memory of Bam-Bam...

a message to the pinks.

2007-10-15T20:19:00.000-07:00

Marz, Jj, Glennie, Melody - the pink ladies.

This friendship started in a literary musical of the class. The four of us were the choreographers of that literary musical. At that time, we had a strong bonding. It was the time when my best friend and I were kinda spacing out from each other. They were fun-to-with. We were laughing at all times, we were open with each other, we were like sisters!

I really liked to be with them. But then things change and people change. There was this incident when I started to realize that I'm different from them. I just don't seem to fit in. Glennie and I had a petty quarrel which then became grew big. It was just about Sarah Geronimo. I'm really don't like that singer and, I guess, she was a fan of hers. I didn't mean to talk bad about her idol, it was just a joke. (Note: this happened in a chat in YM.) The following day, I felt awkward to her so I did not talk to her. We did not talk for one whole week. However, we have to patch things up since we both are in the same group for our research. Yeah, we were able to patch things up but I started to realize that I'm different from them. They come out so strong and that's really not my style. The three of them had this "mataray effect" and they were kikay too. I'm really not like that. I guess I'm just weak, crybaby and "madrama".

To Jj:
I guess you're mad at me right now and maybe you just don't let it show. I just think of this since you told me before that you hate people that are "balimbing". But let me just tell you that I did not say a word about the things that we had talked about. You know, the "libaks" to you-know-who. I haven't mention anything about it. And I assure you that I won't say anything about that.

To Glennie:
Yeah, I guess that you're thinking that I am "mababaw". I won't deny it. You're not the reason why I quit the group. It's a personal thing. I hope you understand.

To Melody:
All I can say is sorry. You didn't do anything actually. Thanks for always being there for me.

And Lastly to the three of you:
I'm sorry guys. I know we promised that we would not leave each other. But I will really not leave you guys. I'm just here. Though not as one of the pinks but as a friend. I hope you would still accept it. Thanks for the memories guys. :)

P.S
Heya guys! I'm back from being on hiatus. Yipee! I finally found time to blog again. Anyway, I have a new layout. Like it?

i'll be away..

2007-08-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

I'm having difficulties in finding time to blog for the past few weeks. And because of this, I decided to be on hiatus for awhile. I'm quite busy in school lately. Senior life is really exhausting but also fun at the same time.

That would be all for now. Just keep tagging guys. Tell me if you miss me. Just kidding.

By the way, I wanna greet my sis.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Love yah!

P.S
Hiatus on blogging only.. :D

the upcat.. bow

2007-08-05T19:46:00.000-07:00

August 5, 2007(Sunday) - my schedule of exam for UPCAT. Yeah. I woke up at 5:30am to wish luck and blessings to all my batchmates that were taking the exam at 6:30am. I was getting nervous. Well, actually, that nervousness was there since Friday. I was trying my best to remove that feeling. Yet, in whatever I do, it won't fade. Yeah, I know it's inevitable but it was starting to pressure me.

Anyway, back to story. At 8am, I went to church, prayed for you-know-what. After the mass, I tried to relax though the panic was still there. At 11am, I met up with Weanne, Albeth, and Jim. We ate our lunch together at Jollibee. It was obvious in our faces that we all feel nervous. We went together to UP Tacloban. Before entering the campus premises, we stayed outside to chat for awhile. Weanne and I were going to take in the Multi-purpose Hall while Albeth and Jim were going to take in the Library. When we saw the 6:30am takers go out of the buildings, we went separate ways and wished luck and blessings to each other.

The Testing Proper:
It took almost one hour to give to instructions and to fill out the front page of the answer sheet. The first sub that we took was the Language Proficiency. Next was Science. The first two subjects were OK. Including Reading Comprehension - the last sub. The sub that really bothered was Math. I wasn't able to finish to finish it. The only good thing about it was I wasn't the only one. haha. Anyway, the exam was really exhausting. My neck was hurting while taking the exam. After the test, I felt drained, excruciated, and the like. I feel bad in Math. I mean, I knew how to solve for those problems but I just lack time. What can we do? The exam is time pressured.

*sigh* I hope that I would pass the UPCAT.

waaaaa..

2007-08-03T10:09:00.000-07:00

Our quarter exams is already done. Now, my next test is the UPCAT - the entrance exam of my dream school in college. I'll be taking this on Sunday.

Wish me luck guys!

a fun-filled(?) month

2007-07-25T20:06:00.000-07:00

It has been a month since I last blabbered here. Well, a lot of things happened. There's so much to tell but I only have limited time. You see, I need to sleep 'cause I had spent almost a week of sleepless nights. That's why.

Anyway, I'll just start blabbering about the Founding Anniversary of my alma mater. This year's events in the Foundation Anniversary were totally different from the past years. From one week it was shortened into one day. Also, the motorcade was abolished. There were no booths that us, students, go and "tambay". It was like a Humanities Day since the highlight was the Literary Musicals which the sophies, juniors, and us - seniors - prepared for that event. Our section placed 3rd. It did not even matter to us that we lost, at least, we had fun. The only thing that made that day so memorable was the Pisay Night - our last Pisay Night. aww. We all enjoyed. We danced non-stop.

This month, the staff of our school paper was announced and I'm the News Editor. I was shocked about that. I didn't expect that since I'm pretty much not of a news writer. In fact, I think news writing is my weakness. Nevertheless, another responsibility has come my way.

I've started cramming this month - cramming to the max! I always feel lazy to do the assignments that our teachers give us. But I'm not lazy during classes except for Economics. It's sooooooooo boring. It's irritating sometimes to listen to all those err's. tsktsk.

That would be all for now. Dad's here. Pissing me off. Argh!

whew.. what a day!

2007-06-30T19:10:00.000-07:00

I'm really exhausted right now. I got up early this morning and joined my parents while they exercised. After that, we went to McDonald's to have breakfast. wahaha. Anyway, before 8 AM, we went home because my classmates are coming for our Literary Musical presentation during the Foundation days of our school. This would be a competition within the juniors and the seniors. Ours would be Grease! An old movie of John Travolta and Olivia Newton-John. It's like High School Musical but this is movie has some "rated PG-13" parts. But it's still cool.

From 8 this morning until 6 this evening, we practiced and practiced. It was fun since our section, IV-Neutron, is getting closer. We're already bonding like atoms. (Wew, so scientific huh?) Anyway, we even had our contest of our own, girls vs boys. Whoever had a perfect execution of each dance wins. We were all laughing since we can't still master all the steps. In each pratice, we kinda improve. And that's good, right?

We're not aiming much to win. We just want to have our musical a success - that's all. :)

So much for that. I feel better right now. No more "i'm down". I happy again! hihi. :)

P.S
Happy Fiesta Tacloban!

i'm down..

2007-06-27T18:07:00.000-07:00

*sigh* I'm kinda depressed right now. I just feel so alone. Although I have my classmates' company but I still feel alone. Maybe I'm not just getting used to my "status" right now. Before, I always have this attention that I would get from people. But now, I'm not even that noticeable (I think). Though, there are still some people who still notice me but those people I love to hang out before, *sigh* they changed. Or maybe it's just me. Oh, I don't know.

Nothing much to say. That would be all. Sorry guys, I'm not in the mood right now.

a crappy survey..

2007-06-08T15:25:00.000-07:00

1. Do you have an alias/a.k.a?
- yep.. Marz..
2. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
- mocha, cookies and cream
3. What movie/s are you waiting for?
- Harry Potter 5, Pirates4 (if ever), etc..
4. If you wanted to be in a band, what genre?
- rock, pop, or bossa nova..
5. What is the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?
- dunno..
6. do you want to live with your parents forever?
- if they don't get old, why not?
7. Where is the place you want to be right now?
- the Caribbean
8. What song do you listen to feel happy?
- sooo many..
9. In The Lord of the Rings, who are you?
- I want to be Lord Legolas.. wahaha.. Orlando Bloom is soo sexy..
10. In Starwars, who is your favorite character?
- R2D2!.. wahaha..
11.What movie/s made you cry?
- hmmm?
12. Name famous people you had a crush on?
- Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom
13. What is your favorite drink?
- water
14. Which cartoon character is your favorite?
- Kuzco!
15. Good or Bad?
- what?!
16. If you could freely kill just one celebrity, who?
- lemme think..
17. Elevator or Escalator?
- stairs! haha..
18. In a week, how many times do you go online?
- almost everyday..
20. Single or married?
- single
21. Describe yourself in one word?
- one word is not enough.. haha..
22. Describe yourself in two words?
- two words is also not enough.. =p
23. What's the last thing you do before you go to sleep?
- close my eyes?
24. Something about you that you're proud of:
- i have lots of friends?
25. Are you in love?
- NO!
26. What is a friend?
- someone we can lean on during hard times..
27. Are you happy?
-Yes!
28. Why?
- I'm quite satisfied with my life right now.
29. What is the most important material object you possess?
- cellphone.. my MP3's not working already.. huhu..
30. What are you listening to right now?
- Dirty Little Secret by All-American Rejects
31. Complete this sentence: THE WORLD NEEDS...
- ME! haha..
32. What was the last thing you ate?
- my lunch..
33. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? why?
- a multi-colored crayon.. haha
34. What did you eat for breakfast?
- cereals
35. Last person you talked to on the phone?
- Mom's secretary
36. Last person who sent you an SMS?
- Ate Tin..
39. Automatic or Manual car?
- i'd prefer learning the manual car..
40. Favorite day/s of the week?
- depends
41. Favorite place?
- McDo!
42. Sports Wear Apparel?
- hmm..
43. Dream Hairstyle?
- something different
44. Dream Girl?
- ME!.. lols..
45. Dream Car?
- a car customized for myself.. :P

new school year, new skin..

2007-06-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

Classes are about to begin. So I have a new layout for my blog (@ blogger).

That would be all. *bow*

P.S
Please comment about this new layout. :)

my summer.. :)

2007-05-31T12:33:00.000-07:00

Aww. Summer's about to end. Yet, I still want to extend it.

I never thought my summer vacation this year would be fun and memorable. I just thought that it would always be the same boring summer vacation when I usually get fatter since I have nothing much to do. I could definitely say that this summer would be on the fave list. hihi.

All the fun started during our performance in the Execom. I had fun practicing with my co-Musikarisyo members. Although, that time there were spoilers. (Just read my past posts for more info.)

Then, the Asian Suzuki Conference came. I had fun there. It was a very unique experience. It was like a "haven of music geeks", one of my friends said. And the feeling of performing in front of many people with my violin, it was great! I feel like I'm a violin virtuoso. (weh?!) Anyway, I enjoyed a lot there; eventhough, I did not meet a lot of new friends.

Lastly, the Achievers Review. I'm really thakful that I was a part of this class. I mean, my classmates were really cool. Meeting these people, well, had an impact on me. They were so fun-to-be-with, friendly, and the like. It was like we have known each other for a long time that our bonding was strong. I'll surely won't forget them. They're now part of my life and I'm looking forward in seeing them again soon. Maybe we'll see each other in college.

To Tropang Achievers, I'll really miss you all. Thanks for the memories. See you again soon. Keep in touch sa YM. hihi. :)

For more pics, visit my multiply.. http://gagerz.multiply.com/photos/album/6?mark_read=gagerz:photos:6

for mom..

2007-05-12T19:30:00.000-07:00

It's Mother's Day tomorrow. A day that we give honor to our mothers for all that they have done for us. To all mothers out there, Happy Mother's Day!

And this one's for my mom...

Dear Mom,
I want to say thank you for everything that you have done for us. You were always there for us although we had hurt you. I admit that sometimes I get pissed off when you're around. But you know, I really miss you when you're not around. I'm very sorry for being such a naughty daughter. Thank you for guiding us through our lives. For without you, I can't imagine what would I become.

I just want to let you know, you mean the world to me. Only a heart as dear as yours would love so unselfishly. The many things you've done, all the times that you were there, help me knowdown deep inside how much you really care for us. Even if I don't appreciate all you do, I feel richly blessed for having you as a mom.

Although this letter is short, everything I said is true. And most importantly, it all comes from the heart. I love you Mama.

Here is a poem I'd like to dedicate to all moms around the world especially to my mom. Written by Beth Freeman on November 11, 1998 -- my 7th birthday. :)

Forget Her Not

The loving talks, the way she cared.
Her wonderful smile, the laughter you shared.
The special secrets between she and you.
The mother's bond of love was so true.

Upon, her love you could always count.
Her love was priceless.
A treasure, of tremendous amount.

Listen children and you will hear
the whispers of your mother beside your ear.
Remember her voice, though she is away,
For you will see her again someday.

Can you hear her cry? Can you feel her tears?
Do you take the time, to remember her fears?

In her time on earth, She was there.
In her time on earth, She did care.

Was she sent away, and forgotten her needs.
Have you showed her your love, by all your deeds?

All of these thing, you ask yourself.
Are you happy with the answer?
Or did, she take a back shelf?

Somebody else will meet to her needs.
What if she felt the same for all her seeds?

So forget her not, for she always cared.
Return the love to her, that with you she shared.

I LOVE YOU MAMA!

what's happening?!

2007-05-11T15:28:00.000-07:00

I don't know what's happening to me! I feel insecure to someone although we had been friends for a very long time. I think I'm jealous. Jealous?! of what? Why? Fine! Magtataglish ako! Sorry to my foreign co-bloggers. ^_^

Feeling ko, kung mag-aaway kami, lahat ng tao favor sa kanya. Everyone likes that person. Crush ng bayan siya. Everytime I look sa kanyang mga website, I feel so uneasy. Looking at those comments etchos, I feel insecure. Pero friend ko siya at siya'y mahalaga sa akin. Minsan, naisip ko na mas mabuting di na ako magiging close sa kanya. I really hurts sometimes kung kasama ko siya. It's like kapag magkasama kami and we did something na maganda, parang nasa kanya lang yung credit. I mean, basta! Yun na yun. Di ko siya maexplain. Ang labo. haha. I really don't know what's happening to me. I know that I shouldn't be like that but... Oh I don't know. It's sooooo pathetic of me.

Anyway, so much for that. I have other things to think about. I'm having a review for college entrance exams. Yeah, a review. Nothing much. hehe.

I guess that would be all for now. I'm not in the mood. Sorry.

all about the conference..

2007-05-05T23:06:00.000-07:00

Well, three days has passed. Our conference is about to end during the 7th. As of now, I'm having fun. I enjoy every class that we have in the conference, the "lakwatsa" that we do after our classes, the "tambay" in the dorm, the conference as a whole. I actually did not meet new friends. How sad. People there were not as what I expected. There were a lot of Koreans there. In fact, Korea has the biggest delegation. I really adore them as musicians. They're really good. I just love watching and listening to them.

The fun part in this conference is... tada! - the "lakwatsa". It started yesterday. We, the girls, consisting of Ate Yannie, Lennyvie, Ate Frances, and me, went to Robinson's Galleria. We just went to Tom's World. We had so much fun there. We got addicted to that coin thingy. I don't know what that things was called. Anyway, we played and played until we realized that we were already late for the concert that we planned to watch. So, we ate fast and went to watch the concert. We enjoyed so much that we lost track of time. Today, we went back to Robinson's. This time, we went to Timezone and played. I was with Ate Yannie, Emman, Alfie, Alvin, Kean, Riz, Jericho, Jethro, and Mr. and Mrs. Isagan. Kean treated each one of us a 100-peso worth of Timezone load. We played and played again. We were conscious of the time 'cause Mr. Isagan was kinda strict. When it was minutes before 6:30, we finished our last games and hurriedly went to our meeting area. It was really funny 'cause we were on time. We really had fun.

By the way, I'll be performing tomorrow. I'm quite nervous at this moment. Even yesterday, I was nervous already. Anyway guys, just wish me luck!

P.S
I'll be posting some pics maybe at the end of the month. I can't upload right now. Watch out for it. :)

why o why?!

2007-04-26T10:30:00.000-07:00

Nooooooooooo! Our trip to Iloilo was cancelled. Darn! I was soooooooo excited. tsk tsk tsk. How sad. That darn sponsor of my dad. He didn't give me a ticket to Iloilo. My dad got mad. In result, he decided he would not go without me. It is his way of "demanding". hehe. My dad really loves me. And I love him too eventhough we usually fight.

I hate it! But anyway, I'm going to Manila on May 2nd. tsk tsk. My performance is getting near. Oh noooooo! Gotta practice.

that luau presentation + my dreams = my post for today..

2007-04-24T11:19:00.000-07:00

It has been four days since we had our presentation. It was fine. My day was great. We were having fun until we finished our presentation. My mom arrived to pick me up. She said dad's mad again so we have to go home. I didn't even have the chance to eat there. It was oh so nakakainis. I really wanna cry that time. Why can't they understand? You see, I have dreams. I wanna do a lot of things. I wanna do this, do that, but they won't let me. Sometimes, I think if I would always follow them, I won't accomplish anything. I won't be able to reach my dreams. Anyway, it's not just that that I cried about that night. I cried about the things that I would be missing that day. I read Weanne's blog. And I was sooooooo sad that I wasn't there. I mean this would be my last year in high school and I'm not having so much fun. Well, of course, I'm having fun but not as much friends do. I'm getting sooo dramatic at this moment. So might as well stop talking about this. It's already done. We can't do anything about it. hihi.

Let's talk about happy things. I'm going to Iloilo this Thursday! weeeeeee! I'm so excited. My dad has a convention there. hehe. That's one advantage if your parents are doctors. They have conventions in different places and you can go along with them too. In those conventions, they give away freebies. hihi. They're really useful. My parents wasnt me to become a doctor. I'm having second thoughts on that. I mean, I'm not good in Science although I study in Philippine Science High School. It's such an irony. I really wanted to become a film maker. I was inspired while we're making our English 3 projects. We made a trailer and a movie. But I think there's no school that gives courses related to that here in the Philippines. About that, my mom's been discouraging me to be a film maker. My cousin in the US took that course about film. She even went to Paris. But she said it's hard if you have no connections. And now, she's taking up Medicine. Does that mean I shouldn't pursue that dream of mine? *sigh*

P.S.
The Suzuki Asian Conference is fast approaching. Wish me luck on my performace. hihi.

busy busy me!

2007-04-19T17:55:00.000-07:00

Yes! Finally, my summer is not that boring anymore. I'm quite busy right now, practicing for our presentation tomorrow at the Execom (Executive Committee). It will be a meeting of all PSHS System directors. They'll be having a Luau. So our group, MusikaRisyo and the Chorale, would be performing. I'd be performing 2 solo dances. haha. Grabe na itech!

Also, I'm busy practicing my violin piece for the Suzuki Asian Conference. OMG! It's getting nearer and nearer. waaaaaa. Well, I hadn't practiced for two days! haha. I'll just do double time. I'm always tired whenever I get home from practice at school.

What else? I guess that would be all for now. 'Till next time. Ciao guys!

2-story blogging...

2007-04-16T12:22:00.000-07:00

I'm slightly bored right now. Anyway, this is story #1:

I just finished playing with Weanne's blog. From this:

To this:

Her old layout was kinda unorganized. So I went to blogskins.com and searched for a skin that would fit her. And tada! This is what I found. Really suits for her personality. :D

Story #2:

Yesterday, we had another violin workshop with Prof. Jeffrey Solares. I really had fun. I performed my piece - Minuet 2. It turned out to be okay. Not too good, not too bad. Just ok! hihi. That's a good start. haha. Oh well, I still have to practice more for the Suzuki Asian Conference. A lot of people would be watching. So I really have to do good 'cause we're representing Tacloban City and Musika Sentra. Wish me luck guys.

P.S.

Happy Birthday Bro Jim!

happy birthday!

2007-04-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

weeeee. It's Gagerz' 1st birthday! I never expected that this blog would stay this long. Congrats to me! hihi.

ym doodles..

2007-04-12T09:05:00.000-07:00

I've been infront of the computer for the whole day yesterday. I have nothing else to do here. Yesterday was my rest day for practicing violin. I let my fingers rest for a while since they hurt a little. I just chatted in ym, blogged, updated my friendster profile, and others. Johann, my schoolmate and chatmate, and I were quite bored. He choose Doodles as our IMvironment. Instead of typing, we doodled. haha. Then, I started drawing something. Suddenly, my computer restarted by itself. So, my "masterpiece" was lost. hehe. Then, we decided to draw. See what boredom can do?

Those were our masterpieces. haha. Cute ayt? I did not know boredom can produce such masterpieces. lol.

cute emo guy

2007-04-11T09:48:00.000-07:00

Last night, we went to my aunt's house. She invited us for dinner 'cause she's going back to the US. And there, I saw Mr. Cute Emo Guy. I actually don't know his name. hehe. He kinda looked like that, only cuter. A boy with eyeglasses and some accesories. A boy in shirt, pants and chucks. He's sooooooooooooo CUTE!

Anyway, I was testing my friends about him. They usually ask if we talked. But, unfortunately, we did not talk. I was not actually expecting for us to talk. ASA PA! hehe. I wish I'd see him again soon.

regrets

2007-04-09T17:20:00.000-07:00

I'm full of regrets at this moment. The biggest regret that I have right now, is being absent from my violin lessons for two months. Well, it's not all my fault, my fault is only 75%. lol. I could have been part of the Consort and perform with them in the Suzuki Conference this May. waaaa. Wasak na ang pangarap na yan. I try to comfort myself by thinking that I could still join the Consort but not this time. Just some other time.

Nevertheless, I could still go to the Suzuki Conference to be held in La Salle Greenhills. I would perform a solo too. Actually, everyone in Musika Sentra would perform solos. I would be playing Minuet 2 by J. S. Bach in violin. God, it's hard. I had to get this piece within this week 'cause I would be playing for Prof. Solares. I'm nervous to the highest level. My fingers are hurting right now but I have to bear it.

*sigh* Wish me luck guys. God, help me with this. I offer it to you. :)

Happy Easter!

P.S.
Thanks Jim for "nevertheless". haha. Advance Happy Birthday bro!

KDrama is love.. <3

2007-04-04T14:00:00.000-07:00

Recently, I'm addicted to Korean movies and Korean Drama (KDrama for short). Two days ago, I finished watching Princess Hours. It really made me fall in love. hihi. It's a must-see series guys. Promise! The actors their are soooo goddamn HOT! Specially, Joo Ji-hoon. He's really hot plus his eyes are cute. Guys like him really turns me on. They're my type. haha.

Anyway, I also watched 7 Korean movies for the past 2 days. And right now, I'm on rest of watching DVDs. I've been watching DVDs day and night. haha. My friends were wondering of how I did that. I mean, non-stop watching DVDs for the whole day. Well, I could really do that. You see, I'm a couch potato and I'm proud of it. haha. I've watched the following KMovies:

Il Mare -- it's soo touching.
Yeonriji: Now and Forever -- sad
The Classic -- one of the best
Sarang-eul Nachida: Lost in Love -- not-so-good
My girl and I -- love it
Sad Movie -- it's really a sad movie. :(
Christmas in August -- nice.

I have 2 more DVDs. One contains 9 KMovies while the other has 8. I still don't know what are those movies but I'm kinda excited to watch it. hihi.

That would be all for now. Have a blessed holy week! :)

waaaaaa

2007-03-27T22:11:00.000-07:00

I'm not in the mood to blog today. I'm sooooo stressed out. My sister left for the US. I really miss her. *sigh*

I just found out that my classmates were mad at me again. Can't they understand me? I'm sick and tired of this. I hate money. Even if it's a necessity, I hate it. If my life would be like this because of money, I'd rather die.

argh. I'm really not in the mood today. I'll just update you guys next time. Sorry. :(

here's something I forgot to post a long time..

2007-03-24T17:09:00.000-07:00

title: i feel so alone
date: february 20, 2007

*sigh* The title says it all. I really feel so alone. I feel that nobody cares for me. Even my bestfriend, I feel like we're not bestfriends anymore. Eversince that resectioning thingy, I'm having a hard time reaching out to her. As what I have observed, I think she has a new "bestfriend". I'm not used to being so alone.

Presently, everything has changed, particularly in my life. Before, I never walk around campus alone, except going to the girl's room and going home. Everyday, I walk with my friends. But only this school year, I'm having a hard time coping up with my social life. I would usually be "Out of Place" with my friends. I can't relate to what they're talking about. Sometimes, they talk about something and they don't share it with me. I often wonder why they do that. I'm not a "blubber-mouth" like others. Although I admit that sometimes I tell others some secrets. As if I just tell those to anybody. I share it with the people I trust. And I'm sure about these people that they won't tell anyone.

Darn! I hate it when I'm down and nobody's there to comfort me. Right now, I wanna walk in the rain (although it's not raining at this moment). I wanna cry as hard as I can and find the person who could see the tears that fall from my eyes. I wanna release all the pain and hurt that's here in my heart and find the person who would share the pain with me. I wanna shout at the top of my lungs and find out who could hear me. Someday, somehow, I'll find these people.

can't think of a title.. just read this, if you like..

2007-03-24T16:54:00.000-07:00

My brothers and sister had read my blog. I would like to apologize for the bad things I had said. I was really upset that's why I said those things. Anyway, we're okay right now. I just hope this would last for a long time.

I'm in Manila right now. We had just arrived early this morning. I'm quite sleepy at this moment. As soon as we arrived, we directly went to Oven Maid - Tita Lut's (?) bakeshop. I ate a lot there. hehe. :D

After that, we went to our condominium, unpacked our things and off we go again. We went first to my sister's dentist. Then, we went to Divisoria. When we got there, I just remembered that I had my period today. I checked if I had ... (you know what I mean). Unfortunately, I had. Bad luck for me. So, I decided to go home. I told my mom and my sister about it. They let my brother come with me since I can't manage myself here. My brother's been teasing me as a "Plan Destroyer". He called me that because I had been "destroying" some plans of the family because of some matter which I'm lazy to discuss.

hmm. What else?

I guess that would be all for now. I'll update later or tomorrow. Anyway it's still five in the afternoon here. There's more to come.

problems! problems! problems!

2007-03-23T09:44:00.000-07:00

*sigh* I really don't know what to do. It seems like everytime, everyday, everywhere, pressure's after me. I just don't know what to do. In evrything that I do there's something bad that will happen, no matter how hard I try to prevent it.

argh. Why does life have to be so cruel? It's like the harder I try to make things right, the more it kills me. I just can't take it anymore. I'm so weak right now. Soooooooo goddamn weak.

I feel like I'm drowning with problems. One problem comes after another. I'm having a hard time catching up. Probably, my classmates are angry at me right now. I'm supposed to be at school right now. But I'm here at home, blogging, since my dad did not let me go out right now. argh. I'm so pissed off. he's the worst dad anyone could have!

Could please someone help me?! I can't take this anymore. I wanna die! *sigh*

exams..

2007-03-12T14:54:00.000-07:00

Our final exams had just begun. I'm really really really really nervous about it. My life depends on the results. But anyway, the exams today are okay. Not so hard, not so easy, just average. Good thing I passed Biology2. I'm kinda relieved with that.

gotta go. I must study. I'll update you guys again. :D

happy and frustrated

2007-02-27T17:49:00.000-08:00

It has been a very busy week for me. I lack sleep for almost 2 weeks. I always sleep late and wake up early. Well, not actually early. That's why I'm always late for school. Darn! My stipend would be deducted.

Wondering why the title of my post is "happy and frustrated"? Well, I had a happy weekend. An enjoyable one. Last weekend, we went to LIDE Learning Center Inc. in Isabel, Leyte. Our performing arts group - MusikaRisyo - performed there. We had an interactive exhibit of the indigenous musical instruments here in the Philippines. We enjoyed teaching the participants how to play the instruments that were assigned to us. the instrument that was assigned to me was the Gabbang. It is like a xylophone only that it is smaller. But during our performance it was not the only instrument that I played. Another was the Saronay. I don't know how to explain how it looks, I think it is better if you just search it in the net if you're interested. I enjoyed during our stay in Isabel. I like it there. Serenity is present everywhere. I would love to live there. Though we only stayed for 2 days and 2 nights, I really had fun being with my fellow MusikaRisyo members. Our performance in Isabel was our last performance for this month. April, May, and July would be our next performances. Anyway, here's a pic of our group.

*sigh* I'm half frustrated at this moment. Earlier, we had Oral Defense for our Research. We placed 8th among 15. During our defense, we did defend our research because our research had already been studied and proven. Our topic was "the antibacterial effect of Makahiya (Mimosa pudica l.) in E. coli and Salmonella". We were 3 steps close in being exempted in our final exam in Research. I'm quite annoyed because we spent sleepless nights despite of my tight schedule. We faced a lot of problems. We were prepared to answer their questions but it turned out that we weren't asked even one question. Since our research was already proven by others, there's no need for us to defend. At least they appreciated our Research Paper. They said it was good and complete. (note: we made it bu ourselves) Unfortunately, the defense had the biggest percentage in the criteria. Since we did not defend; surely, we had a small score in that criterion. Bythe way, I was crying in the morning when we arrived in school because we were not allowed to use the LCD projector that we brought. We did not have a lot of time to write a visual aid in Manila Paper, but still we managed to have one eventhough it was not finished. Anyway, everything has been done. I guess I'd better move on and do better in our research next school year.

The school elections is fast approaching. I just hope I'd win. I really want to lead and serve the school. To my schoolmates, please support me. :D

soooo busy!

2007-02-15T04:47:00.000-08:00

*sigh* It has been almost a week since I last posted. We were so busy with a lot of things. I don't wanna talk about the things that happened yesterday and today. It was sooooo irritating. The whole class was irritated about it. Argh!

Anyway, forget that. Our prom was a success! All of us enjoyed. After the ceremony and the dinner, we danced and danced. Eventhough my feet were killing me, I still danced. hehe. Here are some pics from our prom:

Me, Diane, and Keetoy

My first dance - Keetoy!

lols.

Rubidium Class

Rubidium Class Again

Say Cheeze everyone!

Pretty in blue

Me and Marvin

Cheeze!

Koreans?

The Boys of our Batch with our Batch Adviser

Hi Ma'am napikat. haha.

Keetoy, Me, Rovir, and Prom Queen - JJ

Me and Sexy Jillian. wakukuku.

Who's hand is that?

Nice pose dave

The exchange of candles and flowers

Me and Kuya Farly

Weanne, Mutya, and Me

How cute..

During the ceremony

Ceremony

The Entrance of the Alma Mater

wenk.

Taking pictures during the ceremony eh?

Before the prom

A little chit-chat before we begin

hihi

Backview

Blue gowns

Outside before the prom

Me and my bestie - Weanne

Us again

Me and the Prom Queen

Jj, me, and Cath. :)

Note:

Thanks to Weanne, Jj and Kerlyn for the pics. :D

PROM!

2007-02-08T20:08:00.000-08:00

wenk. It's already our prom tomorrow. Still, I haven't seen my gown. I could get it tomorrow since there were some modifications to be made.

For the past week, we have practicing for the prom, especially the cotillion dancers in which I'm a part of. Only on the other day, my stomach keeps on aching. I don't know why but it really hurts. I wish I'd be okay tomorrow.

That would be all for now. Nothing much these days.

it was fun..

2007-02-03T20:17:00.000-08:00

wew. Our performance turned out to be great! Although it was exhausting, it was a worthwhile experience for all of us. It was really tiring to explain things over and over again. *sigh* Nevertheless, I had fun. During my solo, I had a little mistake but it wasn't that obvious. Good thing! :D

I have been wondering. How does HE do it? Go to my school and wait for me eventhough we go home late. No one has ever done that to me except for my family. *thinking*

wee. I'm happy that my activities are now lesser. *whew* Our next activity... the PROM. I still have problems about that. Since I am the class treasurer, I am obliged to collect the payment of my classmates for our prom. The problem is that, I lost it. Well, not actually. Someone stole it and I still don't know who it was. Now, I'm having problems on how to cover the amount that was stolen. I have saved some but it's still not enough. What am I going to do? :'(

*sigh* I have not yet decided if I would run in the school election. 2 out of 3 people said that I should run. The other one said it's up to me. I still need more comments! Please comment guys. Thanks.

why are people so ignorant?

2007-02-02T23:08:00.000-08:00

The plebiscite has been done and most of the my schoolmates voted that the old constitution should not be changed. I actually voted for the new constitution; but still that wasn't enough. I just realized that many of us are ignorant people. No offense but this is reality. Admit it. Well, I admit that I ignorant sometimes. But in cases like these, we should really be careful and we should be aware of evrerything that's happening around us. Before the plebiscite, each class was given a copy of the old and new constitutions but only a few people dared to read those. Because of this ignorance, we made the wrong decision. Instead of having a much better set of incoming officials of our school, the story would be just be repeated - where the new set of officials will start from scratch. I also understand that it was not thoroughly explained to the whole school. The pros and cons were not really discussed. But we can't do anything about it. Everything has been done. Now, we have to stick to the old constitutions which has a lot of errors.

So much for that. Our report in Physics turned out great. Eventhough it was crammed, we got through it. hehe.

Anyway, tomorrow is already our performance in the Musikarisyo. I'm not nervous yet. And tomorrow, I know I'll be. Wish us luck!

*sigh* Could you guys please help me?! I'm having a hard time right now deciding if I should run in this year's Student Alliance elections. I'll really appreciate it if you comment. :D

wew..

2007-01-31T04:36:00.000-08:00

weeeeeee. Finally, three days of nerve-wrecking exams are over. Our Achievement Tests were really hard. Most of my answers were simply guessed. The tension in the exams became worse since the air was sooo cold that my hands were also cold. It was making me uncomfortable while answering. I even brought a little figure of Mother Mary. LoLs. *sigh* I just wish all the nights that I have spent burning my midnight candle were all worth it. Studying all our lessons from the first quarter until the present?! It's really It's still okay if I'm not one of the top scorers in the exam for as long as I pass. hehe.

Anyway, tomorrow would be back to normal. It's really unfair. We weren't given a day to rest. Well, our class was just half-day; but still, it's unfair. We will report in Physics tomorrow and we don't yet have our materials for reporting. We will be cramming again tomorrow. As we say, Crammers Rule! hehe.

I have so much to do these days. This friday, we're having a plebiscite in our school since there's a new constitution that's being passed on. Since I'm a member of the Electoral Board, I'm involved in the facilitating of the said event.

Also, our performing arts group - MusikaRisyo - will be performing this weekend. I'm really nervous since I have a solo. *phew* Well, just wish me luck guys. I really hope that I wouldn't mess up.

Another activity that is in my calendar is our prom. I'm not really excited about that. I like such gatherings but it really costs a lot. I mean, I have many expenses and this is the most costly. Anyways, I hope this event is not a waste of time.

Darn! I still have this financial problem. Now, I know what happened to our class funds that suddenly vanished. Someone has been robbing it all along. But I still don't know who's behind it. Oh well, to that person: Please return everything that you got from our class. hmph. If you don't, go to hell! haha. LoLs.

hmm. What else? ... I've got nothing more to say. That would be all for now. Ciao!

darn..

2007-01-02T21:33:00.000-08:00

Darn. Classes will resume tomorrow. Nooooooooo! There's a practical exam in Computer Science3. I haven't done my report for Advance Biology1. Waaaaaaaaaah! Great. Just Great! I don't feel going to school. I'm so scared to see the results of our exams. I don't want to face the problems I left in school. *sigh* However, this is reality. I can't just runaway from problems just like that. Well, I can but it's not a good choice. It would still haunt me. Anyways, I'll just prepare to face these problems.

Gotta sleep. There are classes tomorrow. hmph!

happy new year!

2007-01-01T20:27:00.000-08:00

I really did not have a good time during 2006. It was a very tough year. But still I managed to be happy. :D

Top 10 horrible events in 2006:
1. I got a failing grade in Physics2
2. My parents found out that I had a bf
3. I lost a big amount of money (our class fund)
4. My bestie and I got separated to different sections
5. I felt insecure to someone
6. I wasn't able to finish the long exam in Math4 because of my stupidity
7. I got sick
8. I went through an emotional crisis
9. This year has the most number of fights and arguements that I had with my friends
10. "The sportsfest controversy"

Top 10 unforgettable events in 2006:
1. I got a failing grade for the first time in my high school years
2. I started blogging
3. I started playing the violin again
4. My sister got married
5. "The break-up"
6. HE confessed
7. Our gig during my sister's wedding
8. Battle of the Bands.. we won 2nd place!
9. Musikarisyo
10. My first violin workshop with Prof. Solares

Goals for 2007:
1. Be in the top 10 (class or batch)
2. To finish Book1 or even Book2 of the Suzuki Method (violin)
3. Be in the Director's List
4. Prove something to myself and other people
5. Improve grades in Math and Physics
6. Join the Suzuki Conference on May
7. Be happier!
8. To win a place in the Research Congress
9. Be at ease with everyone
10. Learn Photoshopping
11. Have lots of money
12. Less problems
13. Do better in school
14. Buy original CDs of my fave artists. No to Piracy!.. hehe
15. Achieve these goals! Aja!

I hope 2007 would be a good year for me. Way better than 2006. Since it's my year (year of the pig-- haha), I hope it will be. Oink! :D

nothing much..

2006-12-27T16:55:00.000-08:00

I was kinda bored today. I have nothing to do. I'm staring at the pics in my friends' friendster profile. Also, I'm making a testimonial to Kuya AP. I really don't know what to type. Anyway, here are some of the pics that I've been staring at.

During the Sundown Party

Yeah! Let's dance

Our band.. Switch.

Me and Emman

Me, Mutya, and Glennie

Me, Weanne, and Marvin

The Atomic Chickens in Taoist Temple, Cebu

When I saw this pic, I was like "Is that me?"

"Chicken out!"

During the Battle of the Bands

P.S.

To Weanne and Melody:

Thanks for the pics..^^

damn it.. where's the spirit?

2006-12-24T14:59:00.000-08:00

*sigh* I'm not really into blogging this time. But since I have nothing much to do and it's kinda boring in here, I've decided to write something in this "bloggy" of mine.

Anyway, today's December 24th. I still don't feel the ... whatchamacallit ... "Christmas Spirit". I really don't know why. It was only then that I realized that it's already Christmas Eve. Maybe there's something missing but I don't know what. *sigh* I guess I'm just missing my big sister. It has been a while since we've been together. And now that she's married, she would have less to time for me.

We really did not have a "sister talk" (or whatever you guys call it). She's not the one whom I tell my deepest darkest secret or any other secrets. Although we sometimes bond, I really feel there's something missing in that bond. It was like the glue/paste/Mighty Bond wasn't enough. Perhaps it's because our age gap is 12 years and we live in different generations.

Before she got married, (I really did not know tat she was getting married on that day) we bonded. I was studying for my exams and she studied with me. We ate the chocolate which her friend, Ate Lailee, gave. We talked a little. We did not talk much 'cause we were studying. It was kinda awkward because she keeps on asking me about my ex. I just said, "Tama na 'yan, ate. Wala na 'yun."

Oh well, she'll be arriving tomorrow from Manila. This would be my chance to be with her. :D

So much with that. I'm really into Scrubs and Sean Mackin right now. Sean Mackin really rocks. He's my inspiration for pursuing violin. Also, Scrubs has motivated me to become a doctor. Before, I still had doubts of what I truly wanted to be someday. Now those doubts narrowed. But still, there are doubts. hehe.

Before I forget, we won 2nd Place in the Battle of the Bands held in our school. We were shocked. We really expected we were last 'cause we did not play well compared to our practices. I was shivering while I was playing my violin. Dang! I was really nervous that time.

uhm..

ohm..

tum..

I've got nothing more to say. That will be all for now. Ciao!

what a very busy week..

2006-11-23T00:58:00.000-08:00

*sigh* I have just finished making 10 bookmarks for English. It's our quiz worth 20 points. Every bookmark is equivalent to 2 points. Ugh, it's not worth all the money we will spend just to make this. The bookmarks will be given to the Boy Scouts that will be visiting our school. As if they would keep it. I bet they would just throw it away after some time. Oh well, I have no other choice.

Anyway, I still have this "emotional crisis". I've already talked to my bestfriend about this but ... I don't know. Now, things just got worse. I'm so stressed lately that I'm having falling hair. *sigh* I'm so worried about my grades this quarter. I realy have a feeling that I'll fail again. Oh darn life!

So many things to do with sooo little time. i'm really bombarded with a lot of activities. Tomorrow, we have a quiz on Math4, an assignment in Chemistry, a presentation to make, and lastly, a practice for Musikarisyo. At least, I've studied a little for Math and only one more item to answer the Chemistry assignment.

Guess, I have to sleep now. With a lot of things to do, I really need a lot of energy. That would be all for now. Ciao guyz! ^_^

damn..

2006-11-21T20:43:00.000-08:00

woohw. I did not realize that it was such a long time since the last time I blubbered something in this blog. Well, I guess I was so lazy of managing two blogs. hehe. Anyway, a lot of things happened for the past months. I'm too lazy to retell it. But if you're really interested, you might as well just read my friendster blog (just click the link).

*sigh* I really don't know what to write this time. I have a great deal of things in my mind but I hardly can express it. Sorry for this but I'm undergoing an "emotional crisis". It's sort of a hard time for me. Everyday being in our classroom, surrounded by my classmates, having a hard time catching up with them and having a little problem with my studies. I really just don't know what to do. I can't talk about this to anyone. Well, I can with my bestfriend, but she's so far away. I mean, we don't talk as often as before because we now belong to different sections. I sometimes find it so hard to reach her out.

Addition to that, there's this person that I'm kinda irritated to. Let's just call this perso as Chuva. I don't hate Chuva or whataver. It's just that Chuva's actions are annoying. Chuva's beliefs are sooo ridiculous. I don't wanna mention those, it might get obvious. Chuva has an attitude that's somehow disrepectful, noisy, and bossy. A lot of people like Chuva for some reasons. They like Chuva because Chuva can be fun-to-be-with, and wild. I like Chuva for that. But sometimes the wildness just goes way too much. Sometimes I think I'm just insecure. But why would I be insecure? I've got everything that I wanted. Well, almost. Or maybe I just want to be close to Chuva but our vibes just don't match.

Oh man, I don't know. I'm very confused. I really don't know where to start. *sigh* Story of my life. I wish all these teething troubles would end.

*sigh* I've got two words to say.. HELP ME!

i got sick.. it's so lousy..

2006-08-15T11:30:00.000-07:00

haaaay. Nabreak na liwat an akon record. Nagkafever ak after a long time. Kasayang. LoL. Bumigay na rin ang aking katawan. Sobra daw kasi sa activities tapos di pa daw ako kumakain nang mabuti.

It all started last Friday night. I got a headache. I sort of notice that I was a little hot that night but I didn't mind since I thought I was still okay. I woke up 9am that Saturday morning. I just noticed that my temperature is really high plus the headache. My fever got worse during that night. I was really crying 'cause I couldn't stand what I was feeling. The cough and colds added to my "suffering".

I got better the next day but only in the afternoon. But early that morning, I still had fever until I took medicine. Thinking that I'm already well, I let my parents buy me some ice cream. Well, I ate some. hehe. I slept happily because I thought I can go to school. But I woke up in the middle of the feelin' chilly. I thought the fan was the cause of it. I was wrong, I had a fever again. I felt sad since I can't go to school.

I still had a little fever yesterday morning. But I got well after a while. I was just lying in bed and watching tv the whole day the whole day. Sounds good? Yeah right, whatever. Damn, it was sooooo boring. I'd rather be in school listening to those boring discussions.

I'm already well right now. But my parents did not allow me to go to school. My dad keeps on threatening me that I will have injections if I go. It's not that I'm afraid of it, it's just that I don't ... (okay, I'm out of reasons) Fine, maybe I'm just afraid. Hey, don't blame me. I haven't been injected for a very very long time.

Oh well, at least I'm okay now. I can already go to school tomorrow. ^_^

Sportsfest na ha Wednesday.. hehe..

2006-08-06T10:42:00.000-07:00

weee.. The 1st Quarter Exams are through. Hooray! And this week, it's already Sportsfest! Woohoo!

Well, I really don't wanna talk about the exams. It pisses me off to think that I'm really stupid. Actually, it's kinda true but I just don't accept it. hehe. Natanga ak ha iba na exams specially ha Research I. Kachahaka. Anyway, I just hope I'll pass the exams. *sigh*

Uhm, Sportsfest na ha Wednesday! I'm so excited kay waray klase. haha.

That's all peepz. Ciao!

wawa man yung frog..

2006-07-13T21:17:00.000-07:00

Nag-disect kami ng frog kanina sa Biology class namin. It was really enjoying. Except the fact that we were like killing the frog. It was so funny 'cause when we caught the frog, it peed. hehe. Also, when we opened the stomach, we found out that she was a vegetarian. haha. LoL.

Today was really a funny day. hehe.

Well, that would be all. Ciao!

P.S.
Happy Birthday Dad! Luv yah!^^

mei hang-over pa rin aku..

2006-07-08T19:42:00.000-07:00

nyaaaaaaaa. Bitin yung founding anniversary ng school. hahaysz. May hang-over pa rin ako. This year's founding anniversary celebration was somehow better than last year.

It was so embarrassing during the first day since kulelat kami. hehe. But anyway, bumawi kami during the second day. We won all the competitions - from poetry reading to acoustic pop to musical intepretation. I'm so overwhelmed when our class - III - Rubidium - was announced as 1st place in the musical interpretation. It was so unexpected because we thought that III - Sodium would win. weeeeee. hehe. But still, our batch won as Best Batch. yipee! All our hardwork paid off. I guess our batch is just talented. char! That's what other people said. haha. :P

Anything else?

Oh yeah, chaka an mga music han Students' Night.

Anyway, I had a great time. hehe.

weeeeee... bad luck loves me... nyahaha..

2006-06-23T23:25:00.000-07:00

After a series of bad luck, I'm still in bad luck. wahaha. Well, sort of. hehe. It was a friday. Ang lahat ay nagsimula sa chismis na ginawa ni Ma'am Ron. Chakanes talaga. Tapos, nahuli kami ng mga teachers sa RTR Plaza na naka-uniform at about 8pm. Sobrang late na. Galing lang kami sa kainan dahil nanlibre si Bez Weanne. Tapos pinapunta ako ng parents ko sa RTR, pinasama ko sila dahil pupunta naman kami sa carnival after. Then, yun na yun. Nahuli kami! And then, nung monday, nagalit sa 'kin mga friends dahil dun. But actually, hinihintay lang nila na mag-sorry ako. Pero I wasn't able to find enough reasons to say sorry to them. *sigh* I really don't wanna talk about it na. Mahubya. hehe.

Nasundan pa ito nung bumagsak pa ako sa quiz namin sa Physics. Nakakainis kasi si Ma'am. argh!

At least, there are some things and some people that still make my day. heehee. ^^

haaayz. That's all. Tinatamad na ako. hehe.

grabe...

2006-06-15T18:59:00.000-07:00

haaayz. Lots of things happened the past week. Grabe! Last Friday, nagkaupod kami ni *toot*. It was our first time to be with each other's company. Well, we we're silent most of the time. We did not talk much instead we smiled. nyakz. hehe. I guess, we we're shy at each other. Obviously. heehee.

Han monday, nagkaupod na liwat kami. Well, dapat si Bez Weanne lang yung kasama ko nun. Pero gusto niya sumama para lang sumamok. Hehe. For some reasons, pumayag ako. alams nah. hehe. We went to downtown to buy some school supplies and to have lakwatsa! hehe. Actually, he was leaving for Manila the next day. :c hehe. And guess what... he actually treated us snack. Grabeee! Makarawod hin duro. Well, thanks anyway if you're reading this. But I just hope you're not, 'cause it's really embarassing. :D

Uhmmmm. I actually miss him. *blush* *sigh*

Grabeh. This is so nakakahiya. hahaha.

By the way, it's Bez Weanne's birthday! Happy Birthday Bez! Wabxu! Mwahugsh!

'Till here lang muna guyz.

first day high!.. LoL..

2006-06-04T22:54:00.000-07:00

Nasasabik sa unang araw ng eskwela. Taas kamay with confidence. Let's do the first day high! LoLz. weeeeeeee. Pasukan na naman. I'm so excited. I'm excited to everybody. My bestfriends, my barkada, my batchmates, schoolmates, teachers, etc.

Oh well, I have to sleep now. Have to wake up early. We have a last minute practice for our presentation at the freshmen orientation. I have to go to school at 6:30 am. waaaaaaaaaah.

Ciao!

i'm back in Tacloban.... hehe..

2006-05-30T12:10:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeee. I'm back! Nakakamis talaga ang Tacloban! haaay. I also miss my friends sa dance class. Pati yung pang-aasar ni Julian. haha. I really don't have much to say right now. Naninibago pa ako. hehe.

Ciao guyz!

always,
MaRz^^

a very busy week.. haayz..

2006-05-27T10:51:00.000-07:00

I've been very busy this week. We always practice our dances because our recital is near ang guess what... it's TODAY! waaaaaaaah. It's so funny because after our practice, I go to the mall directlywith my parents and go shopping. nyahaha. Well, as a result, my legs hurt. Oh no! hehe. I guess I just have to deal with it. I know I can do this. really? hehe.

Just wish me luck guys. Ciao!

always,
MaRz^^

the long wait is over! haha..

2006-05-18T18:44:00.000-07:00

The long wait is over... I've updated my blog! haha. I've been very busy these days. Oh really? hehe. Oh well, I've been so confused. *sigh* I've realized many things these days. Wanna know? Here are the things I've realized:

I've realized that I have a tendency to be very STUPID.
I've realized that my friends really love me that I only took them for granted. I'm so sorry guys.
I've realized that I deserve someone better.
I've realized that there's someone out there who'll love me better.
Lastly, I've realized that *toot* is a total JERK.

Nahahangit gad ako! After all the sacrifices I've done, I only got betrayed. I hate you so goddamn much. I don't know why I was so blinded by you that I took my friends for granted. Now I know all the fucking things you did when we were together. I really hate you 'cause you made me feel so stupid. I hate it when I feel stupid. argh! *sigh* Oh well, so much for that.

I really wanna go back to Tacloban. I miss all my friends. I miss them so much that when I see them I wanna hug them so tight. haha. But I can't just go home right now, I still have a recital. haha. I'll be dancing onstage with my fellow dance classmates. I'll be jumping and flying around the stage. LoL. Anyways, it will be on the 27th at 2:00pm in Pius XVII Catholic Center Auditorium. Tama ba? Nag-plug. hehe.

That would be all for now.

always,

MaRz^^

haay...

2006-05-06T12:32:00.000-07:00

It's almost a week since I've last put a post. Ang bilis ko magsawa. I'm not really into blogging this time. *sigh* I don't know what happened to me these past few days. I'm trying so hard to bring back my interest in blogging. hahayz. Yesterday, we went to Gateway mall. We went there by MRT. We did not use the car because gas prices are always increasing. Austerity measures. haha. Oh well, it was really funny when we went to the MRT station near us. I really felt stupid 'cause I wasn't able to go to the other when i inserted the card into the machine. hehe. We were all laughing. I won't forget that happening. hehe. Ginhuhubya aq yana. tsk tsk.

That's it for now...

always,
MaRz^^

la lng..

2006-05-01T15:37:00.000-07:00

Haay. Yesterday was my bro Martin's birthday. We really didn't make plans for that day. haha. We really thought of going to Star City but it mga tawo ngadi.. mga aw-anon. hehe. We just celebrated my bros birthday by having a dinner at Chef d' Angelo in Robinson's Place, Ermita. hehe. With us was my bro Martin's girlfriend, Ate Tasha and my sis' "The One", Kuya Raffy. After that, we went to take my bro's gf to her home. But my sis did not go with us because she has other plans. We went to Marikina Riverbanks. But it was already late when we went there because the mall was already closed. So we went to find other things to do. We saw bump cars but it was expensive. We'd rather have bump cars at Enchanted Kingdom. haha. Oh well, waray na ako mayakan. haha.

always,
MaRz^^

Kalipong oi.. haha..

2006-04-28T11:14:00.000-07:00

I really feel weird these past few days. I don't know. hahayz. Waray ako mayakan yana. tsk tsk tsk. Maybe I'll be back a little later. hehe.

Ciao guyz!

always,
MaRz^^

^_^

2006-04-26T17:25:00.000-07:00

Well, today's another good day. weeeeeee! Although I'm quite exhausted, today is still a good day. heehee. I'm starting to really love my dance class especially now that me and my fellow dance classmates are getting close. hihi. I was late on the first three days of my class. Makarawod hin duro. hehe. I always get up late. Oh well, I'll just try to go there earlier. *sigh* Our class today was really funny because I was lost when we practiced one of our chereographed dances. I was laughing the whole dance. haha. I'm making myself a clown. hehe. After our practice, I was fetched by my brothers. Then, we went to LTO for my brother's renewal of his driver's license. Since it was lunchbreak when we arrived there. We just ate our lunch. I lost my patience today. I just can't take the heat inside. I was so tired from practice and walking under the heat of the sun. *sigh* Good thing I still managed to calm myself. Or else I would be having tantrums. haha. It has been a long time since my tantrums attacked. hehe. Anyway, I changed my blog skin. What do you think? Cool, right? hihi. So much for "love". haha. I think my past blog skin was so cheezy. heehee. Oh well, I guess nothing much happened today.

That would be all for now! Ciao guyz!

always,
MaRz^^

HeeHee....^.^

2006-04-24T03:41:00.000-07:00

Waaaah! Chaka! What's happening?! hahayz. Never mind about it. My dance class had already started. It was actually okay. Good thing I wasn't enrolled in dance aerobics, belly dancing and ballroom. I was enrolled in ballet, hawaiian and jazz. hihi. I feel so relieved. hehe. My first day in dance class turned out good. hehe. At least our class was only small. But most of my classmates were little kids. hehe. They were fun to look at. They were all cute and they're so kulit. hehe. I was shocked 'cause they have danced Sarah Geronimo's song "Lumingon Ka Lang". Weird. hehe. But anyways, it was all good. hehe. There will be another class tomorrow. hehe. I hope it would be better. Hehe. I think I was so exhausted that I slept the whole afternoon. hehe. I don't know what's happening to me that I always sleep. I can't even finish the book that I'm supposed to be reading right now. *sigh* Everything's okay between me and *toot*. We've already figured things out. I'm sorry if I said those things. I was just shocked and I was so mad that's why I said those things. I'm so sorry.

Well, I guess that would be all for now.

always,
MaRz^^

What a bad day!

2006-04-23T22:59:00.000-07:00

What a bad day! Grabeh! It all started when I had my period. Kachaka ano? Then we went jogging in Baywalk -- Roxas Blvd. I wasn't able to catch up with my brothers because I wasn't feeling good. I thought that would be all but actually that wasn't all. We went to my cousins' house because we have nothing to do at home. In other words, para la tumambay! heehee. But unfortunately, they were leaving. But they invited us to come with them to Bulacan sice there was food. So, we agreed to go with them. Since seven people were going and we wouldn't fit in only one car. My brothers decided to bring our car. Thus, we were in two groups. My brothers and my cousins were in our car because they were all boys. While I was with my aunt and uncle. I was so conscious. haha. Since it was a not-so-long trip though it was still long, my consciousness was gone. I fell asleep. haha. I was so tired. I couldn't help. Then, we arrived in my uncle's house. We we're having fun talking and reminiscing the times when my cousins and brothers were still young. It was actually funny remembering those times. Ang kulit! heehee. Then, many people arrived. It was my uncle's friends in the army. My uncle works in the army, you know. He's a Colonel. hehe. As soon as they arrived, the eating session begun. After we ate, we were so full. We ate a lot of oysters. haha. We rested for a little while. Since, my bro Martin has an appoinment, we left there. This was the beginning of the very highlight of the day. On the way out to the expressway, there was a motorcycle before us. Then it suddenly turned. We bumped to it. Or they bumped our car. I really don't what happened. *sigh* Ka-ignorante ko nala. haha. We were stranded in that place for a very long time arranging to the mother and uncle of the dude that bumped us. It took a lot of phone calls to my parents. My parents even asked help from my uncle. But it was his brother who went to us. I don't know if he was any help but when he arrived we settled the problem. Was he any help? What do you think? Anyway, at least it's all over. Everythings okay. hahayz. What a day!

That's all folks!

always,
MaRz^^

weeeeeee! and hmph!

2006-04-22T07:15:00.000-07:00

Yipee! I'm already enrolled in a summer workshop! Weeeeeee! At last, I'm not gonna be bored here at home. I'm so relieved. And now, my next problem.... my pagiging mahiyain. *sigh* I always get that during my first days of classes or whatsoever. And to add that shyness is my nervousness. I always wanted to delete nervousness out of my vocabulary. But what can I do? It always strikes me. tsk tsk tsk. I think it's because I'm enrolling in a dance aerobics, belly dancing, and ballroom dancing. Weird. The ballroom dancing part is okay but dance aerobics and belly dancing?! Sheesh. I really wanted Hip-hop dancing or stage acting. But oh well, I guess I have no other choice. hahayz. It will be starting on Monday. waaaaaah. I can do this. I think? Ano ba?! Hindi ako mapakali. waaaaaah. I don't know. I'm quite bothered right now, you know. I just hate people who betray me. I hate them. I hope they would burn in hell. I thought he was worth my trust again. But shit, ginawa niya akong tanga uli. Damn! Anong akala niya sa kanyang sarili?! He thinks he's all that. Hell and damnation! It akon mayayakan la "feeler" ka! Kagago nim! I just hope you can read this. And if ever you read this, I hope you know that I'm talking about you. Hmph! I'm so depressed!

That's all for now!

MaRz^^

Nakakainis talaga! Hmph!

2006-04-21T20:42:00.000-07:00

Hahayz. I don't know what to do this summer. Tsk tsk tsk. It's kinda late to enroll in summer workshops right now. Kung minamalas ba naman. *sigh* I just hope na may mahanap akong workshop. Or could someone please help me find something to do this summer. Oh well, I just finished reading a novel. haha. It was "Splendid" by Julia Quinn. It was a romantic-comedy love story. It was actually nice but what I did not like about it was the "making love" part. I really never thought that there were sensitive scenes in the novel. haha.But still, nakakakilig pa rin siya except for the you-know-what. hehe. My next reading assignment is "Angels & Demons". I've already started it. hehe. I hope I'd be able to finish it as soon as possible. I have lots of books to novels to read in here. My sis has a collection. Oh yeah! At least I won't be very bored when I have nothing to do. I'm setting my target to 10 books this summer. What do you think? I know it's just a small number of books. But hey, it's my first time to set a goal like that during summer. hehe. Oh well. heehee.

That would be all for today!

always,
MaRz^^

Hirap talaga!

2006-04-17T07:54:00.000-07:00

Tsk tsk tsk. Ang hirap naman ng ginagawa ko. hehe. I have two blogs. hehe. Gumawa ako ng isa pa kasi hindi ko pa alam kung paano ko 'to papagandahin. hahayz. *sigh* Oh well, please help me. I hope someone is somehow visiting this blog of mine. tsk tsk tsk. Well, just visit my other blog -- http://marz_cute.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/. hihi. I know this one's better but the other one is "user-friendly". hehe. Oh well, that's it for now. Please visit my other blog. hehe.

luv lots,
MaRa^^

eLow!^^

2006-04-14T21:10:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! Welcome to my blog! Well, this is my first post. Hihi. Actually, matagal na 'tong account ko but i never really had a time to construct it during school days. Oh well, at least i had the time this time! Weeeeee. My ex-classmate, Donna Bel Flores, suggested that i should have a blog. Thanks for reminding me of this account. Hehe. *sigh* Well, I'll just introduce myself. I'm Mara Kirstimel Li G. Bañez. My friends call me Marz for short. Many people say ang haba daw ng name ko. Hay naku, may mas mahaba pa dyan noh. Hehe. I'm currently studying in Philippine Science High School - Eastern Visayas Campus. Oh diba? astig!.Wahehe. Certified Scholar ng Bayan. Haha. Actually, chamba ko lang yun. Ahehe. I live in the beautiful city of Tacloban! But I'm in Manila right now. Having my vacation. I am the daughter of Dr. Noel S. Bañez and Dr. Socorro G. Bañez. I am the youngest among four siblings. Hehe. Hmmm. What else? I really love surfing the net, chatting, sound trip, watching movies, and lakwatsa (but now parang tintamad na ako. hahayz). Heehee. I love 6 cyclemind, Spongecola, Beyonce, Pussycat Dolls, Matchbox 20, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, etc. etc. Hehe. I really love music especially Rn'B, Pop, Rock, Rap, Rock, and anything that has guitars. Well, that's all for now.

Luv u all! Have a nice lenten season everyone!